I'm having one of those moments where I step back and see how small I am… Watching some fan taken clips from Rammstein meet-and-greets and such, I can't help but feel puny. Not size wise, significance wise. I'm just a little drop in an ocean… An molecule of oxygen in the atmosphere… An atom of matter within an endless universe… I look at other artists and see the impacts they've left, and they're like craters in comparison to my tiny foot prints… Granted, I have wonderful friends, but I only seem to touch so many people. I want to spread my ideas to more people, but I feel as though my skills aren't good enough. I'm mediocre at best… I don't feel as if I can change anything… They say a butterfly flapping it's wings can be all it takes to begin chain mammoth reactions… But you can't really flap wings you don't have. I've got little stumpy wings, just little bumps… I want real wings, wings that inspire others to get their own. Wings that can reach out to people… Is that weird?
(BTW, I'm not depressed or sad or anything... Well, maybe a bit upset that I live in America and the Download festival went down in Europe this past weekend, but you can't have everything. )